Recently i have alot of mix feeling. i cant feel close with my class. i really hpe that this is not depression cause i really hate the feeling of depression (ps:i have depression before)

Recently i feel like vomit everytime i eat food. i can sense this is not a good thing but i dont know who to share. I really hope not to give up so soon and i dun want to be like the past.(give up haif way though the course) include me in your prayer can?

I start not like to go home. My dad is still out of job and i worry, so what am i worry? worry about money worry about school and many more but what does that do with my dad? i also dun no.

I was thinking to find a part time job for weekday but that mean i have to work 7 days? i afraid i cant do it.

I start to felt stupid in class, i not anti-social is just that i change alot thought the 5 month of hoilday. i really hope to be the past me but i really think i cant cause the past me it so fake but now the me is so emo, i think i need to see her soon.

Maybe it because recently i havent been praying cause was thinking of school thing.

I start to felt stress up but i got to need the faith. Can anyone tell me what to do?I WANT BACK THE HAPPY ZANN EVER INFRONT OF MY CLASS.................